and never forget.
synod and watching star wars with charlie, john, heather, cora, dave, reid and troy, creeping all of troy’s facebook pictures (whatta baby), having all those feelings of him flood back, feeling entirely fulfilled and entirely lonely in the same moments, self doubt self doubt self doubt, talking to reid, actually talking to reid, charlie sheena, pool party pda, remembering to breathe, trying not to forget to breathe, praying and praying, hoping and wishing, self doubt self doubt self doubt, hopes and dreams and hopes and hopes.
a lot of hope.
a lot of self doubt.
a lot of uncertainty.
and a whole lot of everlasting friendships.