so the one time i decide not to go to a show with my friends [mainly because i was spending the evening volunteering at school] they get to meet the band, hang out with them all night and have a fantastic evening.
ah well, they’ll be back in a month and i’ll go then. do not dwell.
ps. i’m giving up sugary drinks for lent. that’s all pop, fruitopia, a lot of juices, etc.
pps. i really wanna go see thursday [pending they come here on our taste of chaos show] but ten bucks says no one will come with me and i’ll miss them, just like i missed saosin.
lol whenever i see french online i always say it outloud to myself. i haven’t taken french in three years [after taking it every year in school for like 10 years] so whenever i see it, i like to remind myself that i can pronounce it. not really understand it or speak it, haha.
omgggg i don’t want to work tomorrow. casey, you owe me big time, you don’t even know. i don’t work saturdays, giiiiirl. at least, as i usually try to tell myself to stop thinking about it, by this time tomorrow i’ll be DONE work.
but seriously, 8 hours at staples is very tedious and not fun. i’m hoping good people are working, i didn’t even check the saturday schedule. i never dooo. wahhhh wahhhh wahhhh.
You don’t need anxiety and problems. All you really seek is a conflict free environment which can offer peace and mental security. You don’t like the idea of being alone and, whatever the reason, at this time of your life you feel as if you are being ‘left out’. What you really need is perhaps some ‘tender loving care’.
Rejection is what you fear the most and it is this fear that makes you unapproachable. You are looking for acknowledgement and above all looking for people who can appreciate you for who and what you are.
Matters are not progressing as well as you would have hoped and you are having to make concessions - but you still believe that your goals are realistic it’s just that people can’t seem to see your point of view. You know what you want but you’ll only accept suggestions under duress.
All the distress and agitation is the result of attempting to avoid any form of stimulation or excitement. The situation in which you find yourself at this time is one of hostility and therefore you are under considerable pressure. You are very irritable and prone to angry outbursts. You are in a mental quandary and you could be experiencing physical problems.You are very distressed by the apparent hostility of everyone around you and you feel coerced and subjected to intolerable pressures. You are resentful of what you regard as unreasonable demands on you but the situation is such that you feel powerless to control it and at this time you just don’t know ‘which way to turn’.
You are completely worn out and you are not in the mood for any further demands on your resources. The situation - such as it is - has rendered you quite helpless, unable to continue the mental battle that you have been pursuing for some considerable time. Enough is enough. All you would like to do now would be to have some time for yourself, to find a peaceful situation where you can recuperate in your own time.
“We live in this culture where everything is supposed to be so hip and so cool, and it’s not cool to love, and it’s not cool to take care of each other, and it’s not cool to stand up for ourselves. But you know what? Fuck all of that. I believe in love, and I believe that the only way that we are going to survive this fucking craziness that’s going on in our world today is if we just learn to look at love, turn our heads the other way from all the bullshit, and fucking love.”—Andrew McMahon (via jamiebridgette, michellardi, buyhercandy, unicornology, samanthacaroline) (via justalittlefaith)
people called me gay and it offended me because they were saying something untrue about me. But after moving to Florida, meeting so many amazing people, and honestly listening and forming relationships with you guys on here, I now am offended in a different way. I’m offended that people would simply make a judgement call on someone’s entire life by barely taking a glance at them. I’m offended that our world can’t take the time to ask questions, form a relationship, be able to love, or appreciate, or accept, or just use common ethic codes. If you have experienced anything like this, I am so sorry and don’t feel alone. If you’re gay, straight, bi, whatever, I’m so sorry. People are cruel. But you’re not. You’re amazing.